Dilemma, a word that itself sounds confusing and feels like is in a constant struggle.
Being a type of person I am, puts you in an infinite loop of dilemmas. Every situation ,every single word that I say, every single word that is said to me, every action I do, every action done by others towards me, everything done, not done, happening, not happening, anything and everything puts me in a dilemma. I tend to overthink a lot. Not that it’s a proud thing to confess but I am not ashamed of it either. I go through every single possible situation in my head and at the end of it; I am standing again at a split-road. There is this unending conflict between the good and evil inside me. The situation at that moment is full of chaos; the good side is totally selfless, trying to keep everyone safe and happy even if I end up being a bit sad and depressed. On the other hand the Devil inside is totally selfish and believes that I am the only well-wisher of myself and do what is best for you.
The situation is always bizarre as I am never able to choose a path and all that happens in the future is something again which was totally not expected to happen. People tell me that I am schizophrenic but I don’t think I am I don’t get hallucinations in broad daylight. People criticize me for being like this and ask me to follow the right path but for me both the paths are always equally right and wrong. There is a common mind-set in the present day that you shouldn’t overthink anything but what the masses don’t get is that no one likes to overthink. They should consider themselves being in the place of an over thinker and consider saying their brilliant quotes. The thoughts just keep coming and it keeps multiplying and so the dilemma raises itself to infinity. It’s easy to give motivational quotes but all I require is a solution or someone to advise me properly but that never happens as the situations are. After every possible thing that could happen, I am still in my endless dilemma.